When I'm An Idiot

I never claim to be perfect.

In fact I make it a point to remind everyone that I'm far from it.  I find that by lowering people's standards of me is the best way to exceed their expectations.  Meanwhile I hold myself to the highest possible standard because I want to be the best at what I do.

I do really strive to be great.  Well, good actually.  Okay I just don't want to screw up.

I've been at my new job for about a month now, and it has been going pretty smoothly.  I'm learning the ins and outs of a new industry.  There have been some growing pains, but I have tried my best to open my ears and mind and be a sponge to a lot of new information.

And I've kept my nose clean...until this week.

I screwed something up that should have been simple and routine.  It's the simple and routine stuff that makes you feel especially idiotic when botch it.  This has lead to a sleepless night full of worry about how I can fix it.  I've wondered for the past 24 hours that my new boss will think I'm an imbecile.  I've stressed out about what it means for my employer.  Basically I've been a wreck.

I hate this feeling.  You never want to get noticed for the wrong reasons.  But that is just what is happening.

It's now time for me to pick myself back up, shake it off and make up for it.  Time to change the story.